Want to meditate within, want to be special and alone
却服从规矩却沉没人群
Yet conform to rules, yet immerse in the crowd
多矛盾
how contradicting
Sometimes I feel that I am enjoying my life perfectly fine alone. And yet, sometimes I desire to belong in a group of people. Together in trying to achieve something.
Sometimes I enjoy having involved in a big group activity. And yet, feel bumped when tasked with a responsibility which involve caring for other people.
Sometimes I'd rather working on a task alone. And yet, still feel the loneliness of not being able to clique with majority of my colleagues.
Friday has finally arrived. I can't tell you how happy I am feeling because I have been working overtime for the past two nights (okay, to some of you, two days OT may sound mild, but to me, it is really irritating). I hate working overtime because it feels that I have wasted my precious time away to a company who does not really care about me.
Oh well, enough about my working life. Tonight is Friday and I was planning to go to the gym to shake some butt and then, have a quiet night at home but oh boy, a sudden random chat happened. Yes, it's started with a chat. A LINE chat (and a few stickers).
"Hey, the Taiwanese movie called Our Times is in cinema now, when are we gonna watch?"
"Oh, btw I got a job offer. Should I take it?"
"Whoa that's fast, congratz. So have you asked about the benefits?"
"Oh yeah, guess I should ask first."
"Right, the movie? Wheeennnn???"
"How about...tonight?"
"It's ONZ!"
And yeah, the movie turned out to be awesome. And so was our Friday night. =)
Hello, everyone! How's your day going? If you are having a bad Thursday, cheer up! The weekend is just around the corner. Hm? You are still feeling down, huh? Don't be so hard on yourself. Well, since I can't accompany you to go drinking (and anyway drinking makes you fat), why don't you listen to a happy song?
Don't know where to find? I happened to just find a new happy song randomly by watching the Korean variety song called The Return of Superman. The nice upbeat song is used as one of the soundtrack for the latest of episode of The Return of Superman, which is episode 97. I have to say, the producer (or his staff I suppose) of the show really good at mixing songs into the variety show.
The song turns out to be one of the soundtrack from the Wizard of Oz. Wow, I totally had no idea. But anyway, coming back to the main topic. Like what the song says so many times, we need to be able to let some matters in our life go. Especially when they are not good for us.
I guess it's not that easy to cheer ourselves up when we can't let go and worse, keep on blaming or condemning ourselves upon something bad. Isn't life gonna be so much easier if we weren't so tough on ourselves?
I know it is so easy to blame (1) others and (2) ourselves whenever something did not go according to our wish. But hey, life is a ever-learning journey. And everyone has their own pace to learn life's lesson. To make matters more challenging, other people will not be so patient for us so why don't we be nice and gentle to ourselves?
"Anything that let you down, let it go, let it go."
Hello, everyone. I'm back! I wish I really just wake up from my hibernation but I'm not a polar bear and hence, there's no way I can sustain my life by dozing off for 3 months. So what happened with my life recently...hmm, let's see. Oh! I have changed my job. For a change, I have decided to embark on an adventure into a cold concrete jungle which the world refers to as a "bank". Crazy decision? Maybe. Financially-wise decision? For short term, I would say so because even though the HR downright rejected my salary negotiation I still took the job offer.
One month after...
... this is what my heart simply desires.
This is actually a mystery because it's not that I've already worked my ass until midnight or anything like that. But there are so many things to learn in such a fast pace. I know the expectation is high but still...can't believe the high-intensity work that I have to endure from 8.30am to whatever time you finish work. I don't know why I ended up waking up very tired everyday after only my first month. What a great start.
Has anyone found a dream job where you don't need to work your ass off but still can earn a good pay? Is that a wishful thinking?
Okay Confucius, easy for you to say. The problem is, I don't even know what I love doing. Oh wait, I know some of them. Let's see...eat, travel, sleep, repeat. So if I want to never work a day in my life I have to make a living from eating, travelling or sleeping. The thing is...bills keep on rolling while I'm thinking about this lifetime-solution. So I suppose, we have to get along together, eh bank? XD
Oh well, I guess that's the update of my life so far. Catch up with you guys soon!
